Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Turning the page

Chet and I cleaned up Holden's grave site this week, and discussed how unreal it is that we are nearly a year away from last August.  Holden's site is still a mound of dirt, thanks to our dry summer, so it did not feel as though a year had passed there.

A year ago seems so far away in words; in reality, I will be turning my calendar to August in less than a week.  I can't look back on this year without thanking the Lord for his provision.

Tomorrow will be 11 months since we loaded up in the car, excited to meet our son.  Tomorrow will be 11 months since God chose the perfect plan for our family.

To be honest, I don't know how I feel about August.  As I stood at Holden's grave,  I felt as though we should be somewhere else in our life by now.  But I am slowly realizing we are exactly where we need to be.  I am trying to be content in all things.

I think about the thousands of people in Uganda I would not know anything about, had God not called Holden home.  I think about the work He has done in Chet and I as a couple, and as possible future parents.  I am still humbled by it all when I think about it.

I don't have to ask why anymore.  I can be content with His work in our lives.

Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and He will establish your plans.  Proverbs 16:3


  1. Sarah - you inspire me so much and I am so grateful for your faith and encouragement. To walk much of this year together with you has been an honor. I also just wanted to add that you and Chet ARE parents - in the present - here and now. I love you!

  2. Sarah, your ability to accept your year, be content where God has you and trust fully in His provision for your future is beautiful. He is glorified in your decision to faithfully LIVE where you are and proclaim His goodness. Countless people are seeing HIM living in you and Chet.

    My prayer for you and Chet today is that God will bless you as you remember and long for Holden.