I re-read my last post, and realized how incredibly selfish and ungrateful it was. Sorry friends. Ugh. But since I have a "don't edit and don't delete" policy, because I want to be able to be honest with myself on this journey, I am not going to delete. I did happen to hear the song "Take My Life" playing on my playlist while I was reading the post though. Talk about putting things into perspective:
Take my life and let it be consecrated, Lord, to Thee
Take my moments and my days
Let them flow in ceaseless praise
Take my hands and let them move
At the impulse of Thy love
Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for Thee
Take my voice and let me sing always, only, for my King
Take my lips and let them be filled with messages from Thee
Take my silver and my gold, not a mite would I withhold
Take my intellect and use every power as You choose
Here am I
All of me
Take my life
It's all for Thee
Take my will and make it Thine, it shall be no longer mine
Take my heart, it is Thine own, it shall be Thy royal throne
Take my love, my Lord, I pour at your feet its treasure store
Take myself and I will be ever, only, all for Thee
Take my life and let it be
Consecrated, Lord, to Thee
Take my moments and my days
Let them flow in ceaseless praise
Take my hands and let them move
At the impulse of Thy love
Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for Thee
Take my voice and let me sing always, only, for my King
Take my lips and let them be filled with messages from Thee
Take my silver and my gold, not a mite would I withhold
Take my intellect and use every power as You choose
Here am I
All of me
Take my life
It's all for Thee
Take my will and make it Thine, it shall be no longer mine
Take my heart, it is Thine own, it shall be Thy royal throne
Take my love, my Lord, I pour at your feet its treasure store
Take myself and I will be ever, only, all for Thee
Take my life and let it be
Consecrated, Lord, to Thee
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I appreciate your honesty and your "real" feelings! Whoever only wants to hear and see the good and read a "fake" blog is not living in reality.
ReplyDeleteThis song is one of my favorites! I haven't heard it in a long time and "singing" the lyrics this morning while reading them, reminds me of what a great prayer it really is! This was much needed this morning for me! :)
Honesty is the only thing I can post these days. I think it is important to show everyone our real thoughts and emotions through this journey. Sarah, I feel like we have so much in common (my favorite places to shop are Target and Hobby Lobby.... I can get myself in trouble there:)) Honestly I feel like we have been friends for a lifetime and I have never met you. Thank you for sharing your journey with us and I will always hold a special place for you in my art. I praise God for you and how he brought us togehter during this season of our lives.I love you, sweet friend.
ReplyDeleteI didn't think it was selfish at all....you are grieving...and we can all appreciate your honesty!
ReplyDeleteSarah, it's important to share your hurt, even if it's ugly at times, with other people. And, even more important, it's okay to be brutally honest about what you're feeling before God. He's not intimidated or offended by your pain...He's pretty big. :-)
ReplyDeletePraying for you, Sister -
Courtney
okay i'm glad that all these other women told you to stop being apologetic for how you're feeling. (blair actually said you were being silly too- in a nice way, of course, but meaning that you are grieving; so be sad. and stop apologizing for it.)
ReplyDeletelove you friend.
~e
PRECIOUS FRIENDS,
ReplyDeletethank you so much! i love all of you!! thanks for allowing me to be honest. :)
~sarah
I don't think it's selfish at all either. But even if it were, it is OK to be selfish now and again. This is such a rollercoaster of a journey, isn't it? I find myself feeling one thing one day, the next thing the next day. I'm all over the place most of the time and I definitely contradict myself and probably don't make sense more often than not. But this is OK. It is all part of our journey, learning to breathe again, learning to heal. It's kind of like learning to walk again. We'll stumble now and then but it's only natural. I just thought of this analogy but I kind of like it! :) Take care - thinking of you.
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