We snuggled next to the first fire in our fireplace lastnight. It makes me sad to know we won't ever be doing that with Holden. I feel like part of my family is missing here on earth. I know what Holden is experiencing does not even compare to a cozy fire, but I just feel so incomplete without him.
Christmas is coming up, which means Christmas cards will also be arriving. Each year I ban Chet from checking the mail in December, and rush to my mailbox like a small child, as soon as I get home. It's my favorite thing about the season. I love, love, love receiving and reading cards, especially Christmas cards. This year was supposed to be the best. I had dreamed of and designed the "perfect" card for about 9 months. I had bought all three of our outfits for pictures back in the beginning of August, as soon as stores put out fall/winter clothes.
I had really thought about not sending out a Christmas card this year. In fact, up until last night, Chet and I thought we wouldn't. Good thing I have an amazingly talented and caring friend, Jaci, who designs beautiful cards. I am happy to say that with her sweet abilities, Jaci has made us a card we will be sending out. She has given me a little joy already in this holiday season. Thank you, Jaci!
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7
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I have dreaded the Christmas Card as well.... everthing about the Holidays hurt. It is all of these "firsts" that hurt.
ReplyDeleteLove you, friend.
I know. I have shed many tears over silly cards. It's just that they mean so much to us mommies...everything does really. Love you too, Holly!
ReplyDeleteI bet it will be perfect- just like Holden :)
ReplyDeleteGood for you...it took me a long time to decide what I was going to do for our Christmas cards. I finally had a rubber stamp personalized with my daughter's footprints. I wanted to make sure she would always be a part of our family, even if only in spirit.
ReplyDeleteI have also thought about this a lot. We normally do a family photo for our card and I wondered if people would think I was strange if I drew in an angel or maybe held the Reese Bear. Then I wondered...how many years can I do that? She will always be part of our family but can she really be part of every family photo? If I don't include her, it seems wrong but trying to include her in every family photo seems over the top. I guess I need to remind myself of what I tell others - just take it day by day, case by case.
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to see what your friend designed! Be sure to post a copy on here. :)
Thinking of you,
MB
Courtney, thank you!
ReplyDeleteMary, that is a really good idea! I would love to get a stamp of Holden's huge feet too.
Mary Beth, it seems like everything we plan is missing our babies. I am so glad we always know their love, even if we are not with them right now. I too wonder what future Christmas cards will look like for our family?
Thinking of you all!