Wednesday, October 27, 2010

2 months ago tomorrow

We met our handsome 7lb. 5oz. baby and kissed his perfect face.  I still feel like something is missing in my life.  I have come to accept that the void will probably always be there.  Right now our precious Holden would probably be sleeping through the night, laughing, cooing at us and smiling with his chunky cheeks. 

I pray for our hearts every day.  I pray we can fully accept His will for us every single day.  I sometimes feel like my mommy heart aches more now than it did two months ago.  Such a spectrum of emotions fill my days.  Saying goodbye to my son, on earth, has definitely been an honest challenge to my faith.  I really do have to remind myself each and every day that God's plans are so glorious and perfect.  Each day when I get to see the joy in my friends faces, as parents, I cling to the promises of Christ's hope and plans for us.  Each day is a new day to be blessed by my son's life, and I am so grateful for that privilege.  May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.  Romans 15:13

Mommy and Daddy love you more each day, Holden Newell.  We are going to celebrate your two months of life with Jesus by sending up balloons to you tomorrow.  Your Daddy picked out 1 Samuel 1:27-28 to go on your little headstone.  It says "I prayed for this child, and the Lord granted my request.  In return I am giving him to the Lord.  He will be dedicated to the Lord for his whole life."  We prayed for you every day.  We prayed for you each day of your life in Mommy's tummy.  We know your life is dedicated to the Lord for eternity.  What a blessing son!!  You have made an impact for eternity.  We thank Jesus for giving us the most beautiful gift of your life as our son.  We thank Jesus for what your life has done to our lives.  Most of all, we thank Jesus for His amazing love, that he would die on purpose, so that we can spend eternity with you, sweet baby.  Jesus is hugging you today, but soon we will get to hug you too.  We love you Holden Newell!   


  1. I am praying for your Heart today and always. Beautiful post. You are such an inspiration to me.

  2. I'm praying His nearness to you today.

  3. Holden is so loved, so missed and so very blessed. He has the most amazing parents in the whole world and gets to WALK in his Heavenly Father's arms! I love you so much.

  4. Thinking about you today sweet friend. Your 28th is my 15th. I never asked you how you guys came up with Holden's name?

  5. Thank you all. I love you!
    Paige, we came up with Holden's name because we really liked the name Hudson. I know that sounds strange, but since several friends had sons named Hudson, we looked into other "H" names and liked Holden since it is unique. Newell is my grandpa's name...he's pretty awesome! :)