We visited Holden's little spot at the cemetery right after work. We prayed and released two balloons up to the sky. Chet told me that his headstone should be here in the next few weeks, much sooner than our expected Christmas arrival. That makes me really happy, since the place is so bare right now. The plain pile of dirt really gets to me. I know Holden is not there, but with Jesus ... still, the ugly pile of dirt makes my heart sad.
Today my sweet friends poured out their love to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! It's so humbling to feel this kind of love. You made today a blessing. I smiled each time I read one of your precious messages. Thank you for giving my heart joy and comfort today.
I also was blessed today, because I was able to "meet" a girl named Erin through email. She and her husband Blair lost their beautiful little girl Gwendolyn Hope just a little over a week ago. Her honesty, love and heart for God are astounding to me. Please lift them in prayers. They need to be covered and surrounded by prayers. I ask that God's peace, hope, love, mercy and grace pour over them. Their grief is so real to Chet and I, and their journey has just started. Little Gwen has already made an eternal impact for the kingdom, and her story has touched my life. Meeting someone through this kind of situation is heartbreaking to me, and to be honest, I wish we didn't ever have to meet like this. But I am so thankful that the Lord brought the Cushman family into our lives. Gwendolyn and Holden are surrounded by glory tonight!
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Dear Sarah and Chet, Thank you for all your prayers and support for my son Blair and daughter in law Erin. I am so thankful you all have each other to lean on.
ReplyDeleteIn HIS Grip,
Del Rae Cushman
Grandma to Gwendolyn Hope Cushman
Gwendolyn and Holden are surrounded by glory tonight! AMEN!!
Dear Sarah and Chet,
ReplyDeleteThank you for your prayers and support for my son Blair and daughter in law Erin. I am so thankful you all have each other to lean on.
In HIS Grip,
Del Rae Cushman
Grandmother to Gwendolyn Hope Cushman
Gwendolyn and Holden are surrounded by glory tonight! AMEN!!!
Sarah,
ReplyDeleteSo much hope in heaven---- even though it is so painful at times you can hardly breath (literally), compared to an eternity with our little ones our earthly lives are so small. Our work is undone here...or we would be with them. I love that you are already using Holden's life to glorify the Kingdom! May it bring peace and comfort to others....and to you and Chet as well.
One of my favorites:
"All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ. Even when we are weighed down with troubles, it is for your comfort and salvation! For when we ourselves are comforted, we will certainly comfort you. Then you can patiently endure the same things we suffer. We are confident that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in the comfort God gives us."
2 Corinthians 1: 3-7
I am just now checking blogs from the week, and am a day late in making this comment...but, not a day has gone by for the last two months that I have not lifted you to the Father, sweet friend. I hope Holden's two month birthday had sweetness even in the midst of the sadness. I loved your messages on the balloons...the word "glory" just made me smile. That is truly what it will be. And, I know we all wait in anticipation for the day...
ReplyDeleteMeanwhile, I am so so proud of you. You are already ministering to others and blessing those who need you and your testimony of God's goodness even in the pain. I, too, join you in praying for Erin and her family. As you said, I wish none of us had to know each other this way, but what an AMAZING blessing that the Lord placed us all in this circle of support for each other.
Love you and thinking of precious Holden today. :)
Del Rae, the Lord seems to bring the "perfect" people in our lives at just the perfect time. Your sweet son, daughter in law and granddaughter have been an even bigger blessing to me. (The Lord brought Paige and Chelsea to me when I needed them so very much...this "circle of support", as Chelsea called it, is all part of His loving plans for us.) Erin is a beautiful sister in Christ, just like her Gwendolyn is!
ReplyDeletePaige and Chelsea, thank you sweet friends. I have actually read 2 Corinthians 1:3-7 about 10 times in different places this week. God must've known I needed that. You both have been an incredible source of comfort to me. My enlarged family in Christ is one of the biggest blessings I have ever felt. Much love!
Thinking about you and Holden this weekend. As you know, we just passed the two month mark as well. There are many days I feel peace knowing Reese is with the Lord but there are of course still many moments of sadness and pain. I enjoy reading your blog and appreciate your strong faith. A friend asked me the other day if I am mad at God and my answer is that I have never felt anger at Him because He is the one that is carrying me through this and taking care of my baby. Perhaps there will be a day or even just a moment when I am angry, but it will be shortlived. I appreciate meeting other angels moms who have such a strong faith as I think we can also give each other strength. I hope you and your family are feeling comfort and peace tonight,
ReplyDeleteMary Beth